However none the less here I am and I am thinking of the complexities of nature, the infinite teeming unlikelihood's of certain events. Despite the life shattering nature of these events. I am talking about certain chance meetings. Now I know I have commented on this in the past. But I have as my last post indicates developed feelings which I did not think I would ever feel again. This has led me to consider the roots of them and how many places if just one thing had changed I would never have developed these feelings.
This has led me to consider the nature of the future. In particular do we have any true choices in this world? Or are we destined for these meetings. I am uncertain as I know that sadly many people who need a meeting which brings some small shred of positive light into their lives do not get this. However in my personal journey through life I seem to have always been fortuitous enough to just when I needed it someone has appeared to guide me through whatever personal darkness I happen to be experiencing.
This thought concerns me somewhat though. For if these people were destined to appear before me did that mean that they were forced to neglect helping others more in need/more deserving than I? However I then consider, If they were destined to help me in particular the logical question is: Why? I after all am not appearing to make much of a positive impact on this world. Could it be there is a time when due to my past I will be able to help another?
Could this be a purpose of my fortuitous experiences? Are we just to be moved around in order to help or hinder others depending on our relative pasts? If this were so it is both a pleasant and worrisome thought. I say worrisome as it seems like people are forced to experience pain in order to eliminate pain. Yet the scenario of our lives being moved as described above requires an omnipotent and immanent deity. Which if it does exist and does move the universe in this manner. Would be one radically different from that of the traditional theistic impression of a deity. This creature would be one of at best amorality. Which has horrific implications if it were to become bored of acting in a generally positive manner.
However this purpose also may be a positive thing. After all this could be some sort of group consciousness which relates people to as many places as they are needed that are possible. Indeed this theory could suggest that our whole lives are influenced entirely by the needs of others. Thus implying that humanity is an inherently empathic creature. Which would be a most reassuring thought to have.
I don't have any idea which of these possibilities is true. Indeed I don't know if you agree with my thought process. Heck you might highly disagree with it. This is something I would welcome, this place is too filled with my opinions and thoughts. However your silence does somewhat fill me with confidence. I hope it means that you all think I am being mostly logical. However I have spouted enough nonsense for this today.
So I shall bid you adieu dear friends.
