I am finding camp to be an odd experience. Don't get me wrong I love every moment of it but it's just somewhat odd. After all it pushes me into being a moral person. Those of you who frequent this place will know I am at best morally neutral. At worst ... well morally neutral. This is as you all well know I don't really believe in morals. However here I find myself being what most would likely consider a shining beacon of morality. This confuses me, it's not a person I dislike being. Just a person whom I am not used to inhabiting my skin. Hmm I suppose it does lead to a lessening of the hate which I feel for myself thus I should probably not complain. Yet as of this moment I am occasionally confused when I stop and perceive myself and whom I am becoming.
This change I feel is the culmination of that which began with the events of last October. Yet this is not the time or place to discuss those things. I shall comment though that it has changed me for the better. I am able to measure all things against the person who was revealed that day and find myself pleased with the results.
I hope against hope that these last five weeks continue this trend of lessening of self loathing and indeed that of camp being one of the best experiences of my life.
Thus on that note I shall depart dear friends and compatriots. Au revoir and so long I miss you all and send my best regards and love.
