After reading a post by one of my closest friends (who can be found here). I got to thinking about some factors in my life. In particular those of recent life changes which have been enacted on me. It's something I possibly don't think about enough really, but when I do I am constantly amazed. I realise I am being quite unclear here, I am talking about my friends and the effect they have had on me. To those who don't know me I will comment that this time last year I was incredibly different from the person who writes this blog. The main difference I would say is that I had far more anger. Well if I am honest that was one of the cornerstones of my emotional makeup. The only other part of me was a hollow feeling.
However I am not talking about my past here, perhaps another time (doubtful). I am discussing the fact that in the past seven months i.e. since November 2008. I have changed ... well utterly, I realise this change was brought about primarily through the effects of the people whom I have met in these months. I will never be able to express how grateful I am to these wonderful people. However in an attempt to make my gratitude more clear. I am able to say with the utmost honesty: I would not be alive this day without certain people. Thus I dedicate this post to those whom have filled my life with Joy and light. I thank you all from the deepest part of my soul.
In particular much similar to the Mouse (once again found right here) I find myself thanking the oddities of fate. For example I discovered my best friend through one essentially tiny choice. "Should I take Drama enrichment?" This decision was positive for me, because in the first session we were introducing ourselves and up chirped a guy who was sorta sitting out the way "Hi I am Adam Temporal. As in Temporal physics." Pretty much from then on I started talking to him, this also proved to be a damn fine choice, as it turned out that we are practically the same person. He in particular is a person I am thankful for the oddities of fate for throwing in my path.
His friendship indeed led me to meeting many new people, well I don't need to tell you that. You are all pretty much these new people anyway. However there is two people whom I met in a different way who have also had a profound impact on my life. The first I technically met in primary school (although neither of us remember the other) Yet we truly met sometime in December at a pub called the laurel. We were there to see a mutual friend's gig and well we got on okay but I didn't talk much as I was somewhat still under the influence of depression. However a few months later I was upon Facebook and it suggested me to add the person in question as a friend. I did so and through much discussion both online and real life she has became one of my best friends also.
The second non college person to influence my life was met through the one mentioned above. We were just talking online and she commented she was going to give my email address to a friend. Being a generally apathetic creature I consented, this young lady started off the discussion with a debate about literature. This was well frankly a refreshing experience as at the time not many people talked about books and what not to me. Now this person I haven't met all that many times in real life but still her nigh on constant positive outlook has rubbed off on me.
Finally there is one other major influence upon my recent life. A person whom I have never met, nor will I ever converse with this person. The main reason for this is because he died 90 years before I was born. This man is Friedrich Nietzsche, a man whose writings shaped a lot of my personal beliefs. Which is ironic because I am a nihilist which was the exact thing his work is an attack on. However this is because I agree with certain aspects but not all of them. Yet this was a work which shaped my ideas and indeed certain aspects give me hope for a better tomorrow.
After all that the point I am trying to make is that the biggest changes can occur through the smallest things. The chaos theorists really got it right when they used the analogy "A butterflies wings when beating can cause a tornado on the other side of the world." Well people tend to have that effect on me. One small effect by certain people can send me into the highest of highs and the lowest of lows. Yet in all fairness I wouldn't change any of that for the world. Once again I would like to thank everyone. You have all made my life worth living again, I can never repay you for this, but goddamn I am going to try.
